I'm making a change.
Hi everyone :)
I haven't updated with any pictures for a long long time. It's because I don't have a set laptop/computer. I keep switching and it's annoying sometimes.
I'm making a change.
I started out confused and a tad bit worried, but I keep pushing myself, telling myself if I don't get it done, I never will and that's just failure. I keep trying to convince myself that I am good enough and I will do great things. I convince myself that I have guts.
You know what?
It's actually starting to work. Thinking positive, it works.
So before all of you go back to your respective lives, going back to school, starting somewhere new, leaving the country, going back to college, starting college, getting a job, getting married, having kids.
I'd like to tell you a story.
There's something about a girl named Maryanne.
She draws people to her. She breaks their hearts. She is awkward and twitchy and totally not confident. She thinks people are out to get her because they get so friendly, she's cynical. She doesn't trust the world.
Maryanne has dreams. Big dreams she's too afraid to chase. She sees herself as too weak. See, Maryanne wants to dance. She wants to fly. She believes in fairies. But she's afraid of heights, the forest, the mountains. She's afraid of adventure. Her whole life, she relies on people to take her places, to guide her, to guard her, to keep her safe.
Maryanne falls in love so many times, it's not funny.
She's gotten her heart broken, so often, she's given up on love itself. But her dreams, they take her places she's never been before. There she is, she's safest there, strongest and bravest. She's perfect to herself, only in her sleep.
And she longs to be that person, the person that looks like her, but acts nothing like her.
She can only dream.
Maryanne is a talented person, an artist. She draws and creates worlds in her mind, on canvas but never shows them to anyone. Her bravery only goes so far. She can only show herself, no one else.
Little does she know, the things she dreams of are real. She sleepwalks. Wide awake in the middle of the night, wandering around in the deepest cakes, darkest forests and in the end stumbling upon the place she searched high and low for. A place where people know and love her, a place where she is home.
But towards sunrise, she wanders home and crawls back into bed, waking up the very next morning, not remembering being there and experiencing the things she felt. To her, it was all but an exhilarating dream.
Well, this is where it gets predictable.
One night, Maryanne wakes up in the middle of a dream. Realizing she is really there, in that place. She never leaves.
Her job, her friends, her family, all forgotten. She stays there because she is most comfortable there.
People think she's dead and gone. Missing persons reports were sent out, the police were looking for her. Her mother cried everyday because her daughter had gone missing. Her friends waited for phone calls and called her everyday hoping that one day she'd pick up.
Maryanne took ONE step. Just one. She got too comfortable, and she sat down and never moved from that step.
Don't believe you're on top of the world.
The world is a bigger place than you can imagine.
I've read somewhere before.
Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.
Maryanne? She didn't make it up the rocket.
So go, shoot for the moon, climb the Eiffel Tower, swim in the Nile, climb Mount Everest, go bungee jumping.
Save a penguin.
Pfft.
Stop being sad about your life. Stop being negative, stop pushing people away.
When you stop learning, you stop living.
When you live a routine, doing the same things everyday, you're not living.
If at the end of a day, you look back on it and sigh, you've lost all purpose and direction.
Believe in things.
And never let anyone change you.
Make new friends and never forget the old ones.
Take chances, fall in love. Do the best you can and make yourself proud.
Yeah. I'm happy today.
;)
xxx
I decided to change, be more outgoing and independent and brave.
It was nagging at me, saying "Nah, I'm too scared, what if I embarrass myself?"
But before I could stop myself, I did it. Something I should've done a long long time ago.
Yeah, I'm afraid. But I'm excited too.
And I'm heck proud of myself.
Today I received a parcel. Yes, I was expecting the parcel, but I didn't expect the parcel to be so big.
~_~
I thought, there would a card. Yeah, ONE CARD.
No, the parcel was too huge for one card.
It was my Christmas gifts, flown in.
And I was left speechless and in shock.
Thanks Jammy.
Then I called up my best friend. She's happy too, you know?
At least, she seems happy. That made me happier. I like it when people are happy.
Daphy my happy :)
I hope you'll be happy too, or soon.
And it's okay, I know you can't steal the beanie for me because you're so drop dead gorgeous all eyes are always on you.
I will be better.
:)
To the juniors, still going to school, please do your best and study hard. Life is back in motion as we speak and you're already running out of time.
I'll miss you.
To my friends, I hope you're happy, wherever you are and wherever you may go. I'll miss you more.
To my best best best friends. Hahahaha. I'll be seeing you as much as I want. You're not getting rid of me :D
NYEHEHEHEHE.
Well, there you go. Happy post.
Love you :)
Hi everyone :)
I haven't updated with any pictures for a long long time. It's because I don't have a set laptop/computer. I keep switching and it's annoying sometimes.
I'm making a change.
I started out confused and a tad bit worried, but I keep pushing myself, telling myself if I don't get it done, I never will and that's just failure. I keep trying to convince myself that I am good enough and I will do great things. I convince myself that I have guts.
You know what?
It's actually starting to work. Thinking positive, it works.
So before all of you go back to your respective lives, going back to school, starting somewhere new, leaving the country, going back to college, starting college, getting a job, getting married, having kids.
I'd like to tell you a story.
There's something about a girl named Maryanne.
She draws people to her. She breaks their hearts. She is awkward and twitchy and totally not confident. She thinks people are out to get her because they get so friendly, she's cynical. She doesn't trust the world.
Maryanne has dreams. Big dreams she's too afraid to chase. She sees herself as too weak. See, Maryanne wants to dance. She wants to fly. She believes in fairies. But she's afraid of heights, the forest, the mountains. She's afraid of adventure. Her whole life, she relies on people to take her places, to guide her, to guard her, to keep her safe.
Maryanne falls in love so many times, it's not funny.
She's gotten her heart broken, so often, she's given up on love itself. But her dreams, they take her places she's never been before. There she is, she's safest there, strongest and bravest. She's perfect to herself, only in her sleep.
And she longs to be that person, the person that looks like her, but acts nothing like her.
She can only dream.
Maryanne is a talented person, an artist. She draws and creates worlds in her mind, on canvas but never shows them to anyone. Her bravery only goes so far. She can only show herself, no one else.
Little does she know, the things she dreams of are real. She sleepwalks. Wide awake in the middle of the night, wandering around in the deepest cakes, darkest forests and in the end stumbling upon the place she searched high and low for. A place where people know and love her, a place where she is home.
But towards sunrise, she wanders home and crawls back into bed, waking up the very next morning, not remembering being there and experiencing the things she felt. To her, it was all but an exhilarating dream.
Well, this is where it gets predictable.
One night, Maryanne wakes up in the middle of a dream. Realizing she is really there, in that place. She never leaves.
Her job, her friends, her family, all forgotten. She stays there because she is most comfortable there.
People think she's dead and gone. Missing persons reports were sent out, the police were looking for her. Her mother cried everyday because her daughter had gone missing. Her friends waited for phone calls and called her everyday hoping that one day she'd pick up.
Maryanne took ONE step. Just one. She got too comfortable, and she sat down and never moved from that step.
Don't believe you're on top of the world.
The world is a bigger place than you can imagine.
I've read somewhere before.
Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.
Maryanne? She didn't make it up the rocket.
So go, shoot for the moon, climb the Eiffel Tower, swim in the Nile, climb Mount Everest, go bungee jumping.
Save a penguin.
Pfft.
Stop being sad about your life. Stop being negative, stop pushing people away.
When you stop learning, you stop living.
When you live a routine, doing the same things everyday, you're not living.
If at the end of a day, you look back on it and sigh, you've lost all purpose and direction.
Believe in things.
And never let anyone change you.
Make new friends and never forget the old ones.
Take chances, fall in love. Do the best you can and make yourself proud.
Yeah. I'm happy today.
;)
xxx
I decided to change, be more outgoing and independent and brave.
It was nagging at me, saying "Nah, I'm too scared, what if I embarrass myself?"
But before I could stop myself, I did it. Something I should've done a long long time ago.
Yeah, I'm afraid. But I'm excited too.
And I'm heck proud of myself.
Today I received a parcel. Yes, I was expecting the parcel, but I didn't expect the parcel to be so big.
~_~
I thought, there would a card. Yeah, ONE CARD.
No, the parcel was too huge for one card.
It was my Christmas gifts, flown in.
And I was left speechless and in shock.
Thanks Jammy.
Then I called up my best friend. She's happy too, you know?
At least, she seems happy. That made me happier. I like it when people are happy.
Daphy my happy :)
I hope you'll be happy too, or soon.
And it's okay, I know you can't steal the beanie for me because you're so drop dead gorgeous all eyes are always on you.
I will be better.
:)
To the juniors, still going to school, please do your best and study hard. Life is back in motion as we speak and you're already running out of time.
I'll miss you.
To my friends, I hope you're happy, wherever you are and wherever you may go. I'll miss you more.
To my best best best friends. Hahahaha. I'll be seeing you as much as I want. You're not getting rid of me :D
NYEHEHEHEHE.
Well, there you go. Happy post.
Love you :)
xox, trish
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