Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Dear God

Do you believe in miracles?

xxx

Well, here's a miracle.

I'm finally falling off track.
I find it completely idiotic that I let something like this happen TWICE. I get that it's just the way things go with me, but I had my reasons to be the way I wanted to be, everyone said I would fail and yes, I admit, I fucking failed.

I couldn't do this the way I wanted, it just wasn't in my nature and I believe it's true. I am as you see me. Not at all what I wish to believe I am.

Well, life is short, it's terrible to live one that isn't yours.

But I had my reasons, and my only regret is that I couldn't do it as well as I had anticipated, hence I'm now stuck in the same position I was in all those times before.
I had my reasons, my excuses, for trying.

xxx

I miss my friends.
What happens now?

xxx

The only thing I ask of you is to hold him when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away.

Coz I'm lonely and I'm tired and I'm missing you again.

xox, trish

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