Chubums and MeiMei

I did a bad thing today. Hahaha. Funny how it makes me happy.
I spent an hour and a half with ShinHye, outside the library, laughing my butt off. Yes, NO Public Speaking. Teehee x)

When I got to Wisma to meet up with the rest, AudreyDarling's facial expression was like :O
I'm still wondering why.

Today was very pleasant :)

I saw myself a surfer dude. Hee x) he's SO cute!

I also saw that obnoxious stylo rockstar that I kinda wanna punch in the face. Pfft.

Then I confused everyone because, APPARENTLY, I have too many men. PFFT.

English made me cry today. We watched a movie/documentary called Climate Change. Ah it was so sad. Based in Africa, Germany and France in 2075. It shows the future of the world in the hands of global warming. So tragic.

I recommend it. It's very well done.

x)

In other news, even MassComm was fun today. I have class on Saturday tho :(
It's also been clearly established that from now till the end of our final exams, we, the ADP students, will be in deep shit due to crazy amounts of workload. Die lah now.

I have 3-4 weeks worth of Writing File, 4 articles for AF, a MassComm project, a Finite assignment, a persuasive speech to prepare and quizzes and finals to study for.
Yes, I will die this week or next.
Eventually, college will be the death of me.

Boo :(
Right now, I can't feel it yet. Eventually. I will.
And when I do, I guarantee you. I won't blog. Pooh!

Mafia Wars is addictive. So is L4D. Hahaha, times are changing. :)
Ugh, retainers cause me pain.

I have a NEW mission.
To forget and NOT to care.

I miss Teva, Amy and Daphy very much. Tyng and WeiYing too.
Oh, I'm so proud of WeiYing for getting the JPA scholarship! It's hard to do but she's my hero.

Also, Justin and Dhinesh are extremely awesome for making the most annoying situations, hilariously funny.

Hahaha.
Right now, I'm incredibly happy :D

xox, trish

Because I'm Me & you're You.

They turned down the lights and turned the projector on,
And just as the news of the world started to begin;
I saw my darling and my best friend walk in.
Though I was sitting there, they didn't see.
And so they sat right down in front of me.
When he kissed her on the lips, I almost died.
And in the middle of the colour cartoon, I started to cry.

And so I got up and slowly walked on home,
And mummy saw the tears and said "what's wrong?"
And so to keep from telling her a lie,
I just said "Sad movies make me cry."

xxx

This weekend was absolutely busy and distracting.
Confessions of a shopaholic and shopping with the gang, then there was more shopping with Amelia and Teva, then there was hometown hopping with the family. Oh and more shopping with mummy and daddy.
Not that I bought much, mind you :)

But I got a couple of things I've wanted for a long time already.

"Do you need it?!" Dhinesh says.

Despite that, I couldn't find a lot of the things I was looking for.

I had a lot of fun catching up with Amy and Teva, we were laughing a lot and wondering if we SHOULD be getting it, then not getting it, then regretting and going back for it. Hahaha. Ah I missed them :)

Amy, you better hurry up and tell me!

xxx

Oh my, my ceiling is making noise.
Gasp.

Btw,
Happy Birthday, EunChan!
You know I love you :)

xox, trish

Welcome To The Planet.

Oh poo, I'm SO exhausted.

Here's an update on the cars in my household. There are still 3 cars. We've had a lot of problems with our cars, especially of late. My mom's car door had issues, so after a day at the workshop, it was fixed. Then Jeremy got into an accident, so his car was gone for a week or so. Going places was tough for all of us as my parents and my brother works and I have college but there are only 2 cars to use. All is well when Jeremy's car comes back but this time, my dad's car needs to be fixed. So it's gone for a week or so as well. Same issue arises. Today, we get back my dad's car. So all is SUPPOSED to be well.

But guess what?

My brother, he got into an accident again today.

No, my brother isn't that terrible of a driver. He's just a little low on luck these days.

xxx

ADP Earth Hour Challenge was..taxing. Aish. But it's over, thank goodness :)

I had so much fun today. Sue and Audrey had to stand on chairs and were threatened. They complained so much, it was hilarious.
Ah, I'll elaborate more next time.

I'm too tired.

Goodnight world :)

xox, trish

Darling Darling, now don't leave just yet.

Tomorrow will be a good day, I'll dress up and go to college, attend the Earth Hour event then head off to The Curve. AudreyDarling's turning 18! :D

We need to go shopping!

I forgot, I was in the papers that day. Tuesday I think. StarTwo. :D
Go go find it!

Hm, there are some things I'm supposed to handle. Clear up and fix.
I'm excited for tomorrow :D

xxx

Okay, am gonna start plugging.

Everyone, please support Earth Hour by switching off your lights on Saturday, 28th March 2009 for ONE hour from 8.30 to 9.30 p.m.
Do your part and vote Earth.
:)
Also, to those of you interested to attend the ADP Earth Hour Challenge organized by HELP University College's ADP Department.

Venue : KPD E, 4th floor Auditorium.
Time : 1 - 3 p.m
Date : 27th March 2009, Friday.

Head over here to find out more. Feel free to let me know if you are interested, even if you are not a student of HELP UC.

Admission is free.

End of plug.

xxx

Okay, yeah. Moving on.

Here are a couple of things to know about me.

-- I am generally a nice person, unless you piss me off.
-- I'm pretty straightforward.
-- I may be small, but I can take you on. [for Daniel :D]
-- If you say "Don't look". I'll always look. [Yes Audrey, this is meant for you.]
-- I love playing in the rain, but I hate walking when it's drizzling. It should be heavy or not at all.
-- I listen to sappy songs when I'm sad because I want to feel pathetic.
-- I look for reasons to why people shouldn't like me when I'm alone.
-- I actually do find reasons and fit them to people and start wondering if they hate me.
-- Sometimes I wanna go up to people I see are acting stupid and ask them if they have issues.
-- I don't like people who think they're so cool just because they're so indie rock and shit.
-- I'm happiest on days I get to hang out with my brothers.
-- I hate MFB's. Officially, there's only one but I've seen many MFB qualities in many people.
-- I think people who are genuinely idiotic are funny.
-- I feel closer to my best friends now compared to when they had all the time in the world.
-- The flippy loopy-ness my tummy sometimes feels affects my day.
-- The weather affects my mood.
-- I'm biased.
-- I'm pretty anal about my personal space. I freak out and flinch when people get too close.
-- I spend a lot of time on my hair.
-- I itch when I'm irritated.

That's about all I can think of right NAO. More soon.

xox, trish

Step Right Up to the Freak Show.

Freakshow.

It's okay to get hurt doing something than not to do it and wonder how it would've felt like.

I guess this it how it feels.

xxx

I don't feel relief. You said it would stop eating me up from the inside, stop hurting eventually, at least I don't have to think about it anymore.

It doesn't feel like that.
Not right now.

You promised you'd be there when I fell. Why did I hit the ground?

xxx

Why'd you let me go?

xox, trish

I wanna dance tonight

A kill what?
Kill Joy!

Ah, Sunburst was awesome. Hey you, the one who told me it would suck and laughed at me for wanting to go? Yeah, that's right, you. FUCK YOU COCKSUCKER.

You're the type that can predict the future ey? So sure of something before it even happens? Give yourself a blow.

So sorry. I'm pissed off. I've been walking around my house fuming at everything. I hate a lot of things right now. Yesterday was the highlight of my week. N.E.R.D was the highlight of it all. Oh fuck Pharrell Williams is SO sexy.
SO. SO. SO sexy.

It's the first time in 3 months I have not thought of him.
It's the first time in a long time, since I've felt like myself again.
I miss being me.

It's been so long and I'm so tired of the facade.

Oh poo.

Estrella was goood :) took pictures with them and Bunkface. AzwinAndy is so hot and very tall. We watched Estranged just because of him. Boys with drums make me go bum bum bum. :P

There was Ian and that guy that looks like the guy that acted in that show. Hahaha. Psycho. Lafflaff.
Oh and ChunLoong! AHAHAHA. DAPHY!
:D

Then some creep started talking to Daphy and I did this thing where I pretended he wasn't there. But Daphy's too nice so she's like "Okay, can you like pull me there? Nownownow!"

Jahahaha.

I loved N.E.R.D and Korn. I'll keep repeating that again and again because yesterday I was on a high.

:)
*hisssss*
Pharrell :3

xxx

There are some things I cannot get over.
I don't know why.

xox, trish

Arseface.

Am I dimmer everyday, am I just a little glimmer;
Like a tiny bobbing head of a tiny ocean swimmer?
Olly olly oxen free.
Can you see me?

Am I dimmer everyday?
Am I shrinking, am I shrinking?
Do you recognize my thoughts?
Do you care what I am thinking?
Olly olly oxen free.
Can you see me?

Dimmer; Bishop Allen

xxx

Hello my dear,

I get that I haven't had the guts to say anything. I haven't had the guts and I've been hiding. But I'm still here and the reason why I avoid you, is because I'm not ready for you to want to avoid me too. I do the most idiotic things, like fly out of doors, fall down, gasp really loudly and get stuck at door knobs while you're around. And it doesn't make it any less idiotic that I run away. It doesn't make me smart. I make stupid decisions when I need to be smartest.
But, this doesn't mean I'm an idiot.

Yes, I get that I'm competition. You don't like losing to me, and trust me, you haven't. Somehow your tutorial kinda got messed up. You still managed to beat me at every quiz. And I thought you were so cute when you found out you beat me by 2 points in that last quiz. It flatters to know you refuse to lose to me. Of all people, because it shows that you care how you look in the long run. Especially next to me.

So how does this work?

I'm young. I'm turning 18. I'm young.
I can afford to have my heart broken. I can afford to be bold. I can afford to do as wish, because I am young. And when you're young, you can be free.
I'm allowed to be passionate about things.
I'm allowed to laugh at complete nothing-ness and make fun of my boobs when I can't button my top. I get to be forward about things.

And I will be. Because I am young, and Teva will totally have my back if you don't.
I am young. I've had shit happen to me. I'll survive.

Love, Trish.

xox, trish

Bishop Allen.

http://www.myspace.com/bishopallen

Begin musical education.
:)

Learn to love the indie, my dears.

xox, trish

STFU

Liverpool : Man Utd.
4 : 1

WHAT THE FUCK?

No.
D:

xox, trish

V

I am very very very disappointed.
Seriously, you cannot begin to imagine how I feel about you right now.

xox, trish

In Loving Memory

I dedicate this post to a great woman and her family.

I would like to thank you for always being so kind and so friendly, driving us places and making sure we were safe and had all that we needed.
For being a mother not only to your children, but their friends as well.
For being you.

xxx

I'm so so sorry this happened to you.
You know we'll always be here for you. Just a phone call or text message away.
We love you, Tyng.

xox, trish

Preliminary Bibliography :D

It's been 5 days since I last blogged. I'm pretty annoyed with WindowsLive right now, I can't seem to sign in.
Aish!

I've been pretty busy as of late.
:)
It's good, keeps me distracted.

I had a quiz today, studying with Dessy in the library was fun. Jehan, Annis and Rozzana joined us after a bit. They're so nice :) hilarious.

Jared picked me up after class. It was nice seeing Daphy and Teva again. We smuggled food into the cinema, watched Marley & Me, got ice-cream. I cried watching Marley & Me. Ohmygoodness it's damn sad.

Marley reminded me a bit of Blur. Not as huge, but equally spunky.
Blur was the best dog in the whole wide world.
:(
I miss you, sayang.

AND THEN! Guesss who I saw.
HAHA.

BOYA!

Basically, today was very exciting. There was the car chase. I mean, how often do you get into car chases? Where the other person uses a bottle to hit your car?
That has never happened to me before.

Well, it has, but I never felt so scared in my life.
So today, was one of those exciting, scary, whatthefuck just happened?! days.
Pfft.

When I got home, I was so exhausted.
D:

My parents are off to Vietnam tomorrow! :D
I hope they have a great time and buy me lots of stuff!

Tomorrow, will also be a big big day for all SPM candidates of the year 2008. We will be getting our results.

Frankly, I'm excited.

So, everyone PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE!
Do this with me, for me, and all the other people anxiously anticipating their results.

"Tomorrow, will be a great day. Tomorrow, we will be happy. Tomorrow we will have achieved our goals. Tomorrow, our parents will be proud, we will be proud. Tomorrow will be the best day of our lives."

Tomorrow, will be a great day.

:)

And I, truly, believe this.

I love Persona4. Hahaha.
I did not get my KITKATKINDERBUENOCAKE.

xxx

Oh, I'm falling.
How dangerous.

xox, trish

Bullshit and Lies.

I wanna cry.
Oh gosh, I can't take this anymore.
Murphy's Law.

Pffft.
I'm sick of all your bullshit and lies.
You fucking liar.

xox, trish

Fishing Poppycock Mackarel Cucuk Udang.

OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME.
WHEN AND HOW THE HECK DID I GET SO MUCH WORK AND NOT NOTICE IT!?

AISHH!
D:

xox, trish

Angst. Uncertainty. Oh I've missed you.

I'm prolly gonna have to get ready for class in about half an hour.
Agh, more public speaking.
D:

I feel tired, I kept waking up. From 7 to 8 to 9. But I was too exhausted to get out of bed.
Even now, I'm yawning and tempted to climb back into bed.
I hope Adam goes to class, I don't wanna be alone.

My connection was really screwy yesterday. I kept getting signed out of MSN every 2 minutes and everything was just so..slow.

My parents will be off to Vietnam on the 12th. SPM results will be out.

You know, everything they told us in high school was probably a lie. They made the exams of our grade seem like the hanging thread between life and death. The truth is, when you go to college, nobody really cares who you were in high school or what events you organized, or how many A's you got. The truth is, no one really gives a shit.
I remember how they used to push us to do many extra curricular activities. Said it would bring us points. And, gosh, I did all that, got all my certs and I never touched them since. Sure, they're a sense of achievement, and everytime I look at them, I feel good about myself. But honestly, no one cares if I was the president of the Volleyball Club or the shmuck who didn't do anything in high school.
No one cares that I used to fail add math, the people who passed, still have to take Finite. No one cares that my story was better than your in that last English exam, you don't write stories anymore. It's academic essays now, and it's dry stuff. So much format and system to it, it makes me feel as though I've never written before.

College isn't a continuance of high school, it's something new altogether.
And it's not easy.

I'm introduced to new things, new formats, new words. Handing up ONE assignment feels worse than preparing for SPM. Maybe it's just me, and honestly, all the people you will meet, will make it seem like it's nothing at all. So will I. We do look like a bunch of people who have all the free time in the world. It's all a facade. A good one. Because even we're convinced.

I will not deny, college is one of the best experiences. People talk to you like adults and expect you to understand them. You'll meet people from all walks of life and learn their culture and nature. You'll talk so much in class and it wouldn't be wrong. In fact, your duty is to talk.
More importantly, you get to start fresh.
A clean sleet.

Some people, fail to reinvent themselves.
I have a friend, who to me, looks like she's tried reinventing herself. But unfortunately for her, she's come off on the wrong foot to everyone else. So she gets defensive of her actions.
Some people, remain a mystery.
I know a couple of those too.
Some people, are more complicated than we think.
And others, lay it all out for you.
Still the same as they were a couple of years ago.

And then you talk to your old friends. The ones that you used to spend everyday with.
And you wonder if they've changed. And you wonder if you've changed to them.
This new environment HAS changed you. Learning new things, handling new situations, time has taken it's toll on you and those who have been put into a newer environment.
No, not totally though.

The others, who haven't started. They remain the same.
They act the same way, talk the same way, say the same things. Even if it's things you've never heard them say before, it's predictable, like something just that person would say.
But isn't that why you loved them in the first place?

A lot of things have changed. From being cooped up at home, I go out everyday now.
Not clubbing or shopping, but class.
From wearing that same old uniform, I get to wear my clothes now. Trust me, it's not enough.
From coming home and calling up your best friend, you go online and do assignments.
From knowing everything that goes on in the lives of the people you love, I now, know nothing.

I am a total stranger to the people that were close to me.
Home is the best place to be.
Your family are probably the only ones you can trust at this point.

Because, their attitude towards you doesn't change.
You're in between falling out and falling in. Getting to know new people and not knowing them yet. Having people you know, forgetting how you are. At this point, everything is off focus.

I remember before everything, I had stopped seeing my old friends and hadn't met my new friends yet. Truth be told, no one called me.

I'd have constant freak outs about going into a new environment and they'd say, "You'll be fine."
But they didn't call. It's no big deal, but you wonder if they think of you as much as you think of them. You know they still love you. But how long would it last?

I'm the type of person, who - if I can trust someone, I give them my all. Basically, proof is all I need. Proof that you can be trusted. What if the people you trusted, proved they cannot be trusted after all?

After giving everything you have, wouldn't that have created a vortex? You gave a part of yourself to someone. Now it's gone.

In a nutshell, it's like limbo.
I'm in limbo.
I still talk to the people I love. And I talk to the people I'm growing to love.
And everyday, I love them a little more.

But I can't help but feel like, I don't belong to anyone.
It's just a phase, I'm sure.

In time, I'll learn how to mesh these 2 realities into one without them tearing my reality apart.

xox, trish

Mosh Pit ; Mo Shpit

I've always been a dreamer,
I've had my head among the clouds.
Now that I'm coming down,
won't you be my solid ground?

Sway ; The Perishers

I hate being alone. I tried getting used to it, but the whole 'lonely' aura sticks out like a sore thumb.
I'm alone during Public Speaking. Honestly, I hate that class.
Oh please, don't say "You have Adam."
I've heard enough of that. I wouldn't hate a class if I felt like I really HAD someone. So don't be stupid and say stupid things. I'd just get pissed off and tell you, you don't get it.

Ugh.
Speaking in public, planning, doing slide shows, sitting alone. I hate that. I don't do well in that. Having to do that, where I feel totally uncomfortable, is abso-fucking-lutely horrible!

I feel like a disgrace. My brother never had this problem. He did the same things as I did, and he's clearly way better at it.

Aiishhh.
:(

xxx

Hahaha, that was actually a post I started and didn't complete. I was in that mood at the time. I'm happy now.
I'm always happy on Sundays.

I made dinner for my family today.

Cooked up some black pepper steak, mushrooms and asparagus, mashed potatoes. Yes, I can cook now too! (Specially aimed for Teva, Daph, Amy, WeiYing and the gang).
So, I've taken the bus. Gotten lost on the bus. Taken the LRT by myself, I can order food, and cook! One small step for me, one giant leap for mankind!

I have evolved, my friends. I have :D
I expect "Wahhh, I'm so proud of you!" on my tagboard or comments. Thankyu very much :D
Hahaha.
I wanna go back to school!

I'm running out of clothes to wear, yo. So, here's thing, next weekend, I'm gonna go raid Teva's closet!
I need to go shoppiiiing! Who wants to come with me? Shopping alone, ain't any fun. D:

Ah, I need to sleep. Am SO tired.
Goo-nigh world :)

xox, trish